I think God is trying to tell me something.

I was online researching the meaning of a word the other night, and I was directed to that word’s occurrence in Genesis 49:25.  I didn’t get what I was looking for in my research attempt…feeling a little bit like I’d hit the wall.  Where to go now? I decided to sleep on it.

The next morning, I got on the treadmill and began the daily bible reading that my pastor recommended for 2009.  The pre-assigned reading for the day included Genesis 49.  The very chapter I was looking at the night before.  Hmmmm… what does this mean, Lord?  I pushed my pregnant body to finish my 30 minutes of walking and stepped off with no clarity.

That night, I climbed into bed to do a little reading before my hubby and I were scheduled to watch the re-broadcast of the presidential inaugural speech. (We missed the live speech while at the disgnostic center for an ultrasound). I pulled out my daily devotional book, and the day’s verse was no doubt Genesis 49:24-25.  Coincidence?  A triple coincidence??? Not in God’s economy.

I read on through the devotional, hoping for a clue.  I went back to the passage and read it top to bottom.  God is trying to talk to me, but I am not sure what the message is.  I am going to keep pressing in to Him until I get it.  I need to get it.  I need to hear from Him.

Anyone else out there longing to hear from Him?

I’ve been wrestling for days.  To blog, or not to blog.  What is my motivation?  I have a desire to share what God is teaching me on a daily basis.  Not that I’ll blog on a daily basis. I am a blogging virgin you know. Can’t even figure out how to change the title font on my blog page.

Ah yes… my title.  A Babe in the Womb.  This is my new life-perspective.  My new identity.

I was preparing to teach bible study last week, and my text to cover was John 8:31-59.  The passage begins,  “To the Jews who had believed him, Jesus said, “If you hold to my teaching, you are really my disciples. Then you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free.”

Jesus’ challenge to these people was clearly to move beyond believing to being disciples.  What is the key to making this move?  He said to hold to His teaching.  The word “hold” in this verse means to abide, to remain, to continue.  The word “teaching” literally means His spoken and revealed word.  It is the Greek word logos that we see in John 1:1.

So we are to abide in His word.  I’ve seen this concept before in scripture.  Abide in Him.  Abide in His love.  It means to stay… continue…be fed…be connected to Him.

And then a new level of understanding came to me.  God directed my attention to my ever-growing belly.  Twenty-one weeks worth of baby brewing in there.  He wants me to abide in Him and His word… just like a babe in its mother’s womb.  The baby is kept for nine months, fed every moment, is virtually unaware of the world outside the womb, grows everyday, is being prepared for a purpose.

So that’s me.  A babe in the Father’s womb.  (Before you freak out over the gender association… check out Isaiah 66:13 and Luke 13:34. )  I want to abide in Him.  Let Him keep me close.  Let Him nurture me each day.  Let Him prepare me for His purposes.

The womb is a good place to be.