God has really been impressing on me the importance of listening to Him. My girls and I are studying the Life of David via my Chronological Bible. I am so impressed with the way that David listened to God. He really tuned in to what God was saying.

God speaks in so many ways. Through others, through the Bible, through circumstances, music, literature, nature, and also through the gentle and quiet voice of His Spirit. We just have to be attentive.

In the past week, God has spoken to me so much. I doubt it’s more than usual… I think I’m just listening more! Two specific situations stick out that I want to share.

My husband has been under immense stress of late. God has blessed his business beyond what we imagined and there is much work to do. I have tried to make suggestions about how to reduce his stress, but he wasn’t quite hearing me. One morning I was thinking about what to say to him before he left for work (at 6:00 a.m.). Suddenly, I sensed the Lord telling me to get out a piece of paper and write my husband a note. I couldn’t believe how clearly all of my thoughts came together and how concise it was. I gave it to him and he ran off to work.

He came home that afternoon and told me that the office manager had just called him into her office and told him many of the same things that were in my letter. I had no idea she was going to do that! She insisted on a couple of things that I was also very upfront about in my letter.

I was so blessed. I really felt like I was going out on a limb… I didn’t want to tell my husband what to do, especially in regard to his business. The Lord used both me and the office manager to tell my husband what was on His heart. My hubby received it as a word from the Lord, and it drew us together in a way that I did not expect.

I had another moment this week as I was looking at a picture of a butterfly. The Lord spoke to me these words:  You are the wing.

What?  Was that you, Lord?  Has my recent sleep deprivation and slight dehydration affected my mind? Where did this random thought come from? Why won’t it go away?

Sometimes, God speaks in abstract ways. I spent some time going back to Him to make sure it was His voice. I tried to analyze it. I tried to suppose what it meant. I started to panic and wonder if I could really trust myself to hear Him.  I thought back to past situations when I misheard or misunderstood His word to me. I was a mess… and had to text a friend as I sobbed in the el pollo loco drive thru. (Strange, I admit, but it was my only time alone the whole week!!)

I wrestled for a bit and decided on letting it go and waiting for God to show me what it meant. Those of you with different personalities might wonder why it took me an entire day to get there… but I am a work in progress!

A few days later, I ran into a friend at church and she drew me aside to ask a question. She wondered if I would be available to help her with something. At that moment… I knew what it all meant. God wants me to be a wing and bear some of the responsibilities and burdens with this friend and another friend that is closely involved. It’s a pretty minor thing now, but God has revealed the potential for our venture, and I am excited!

What a blessing to hear Him, and then understand. I was relieved to get some insight in only a few days. The Lord has spoken to me before, and it has taken long periods of time to bring it all to fruition so that I could see and understand. Waiting is the hardest part, don’t you agree?

What is God saying to you this week? Are you listening? Write down what He says, ask all of your questions, make all of your excuses, and then surrender. Lay it down. Let Him handle it. He will provide ALL that is needed. He will open ALL of the doors. He will teach you ALL that you need to know. He will carry you ALL the way!

“You will weep no more. He will surely be gracious to you at the sound of your cry; when He hears it, He will answer you.    And though the Lord gives you the bread of adversity and the water of affliction, yet your Teacher will not hide Himself any more, but your eyes will constantly behold your Teacher.    And your ears will hear a word behind you, saying, This is the way; walk in it, when you turn to the right hand and when you turn to the left. Isaiah 30:19-21

I was reminded of this fact regarding creation this morning:

By the word of the LORD the heavens were made,
their starry host by the breath of his mouth.
For he spoke, and it came to be;
he commanded, and it stood firm.

Psalm 33:6,9

Each thing that the Lord made at the foundation of time was spoken into existence. His very word has the power to create.

The Lord also reminded me this morning that He is not finished creating. He is not finished speaking things into existence. He gently whispered to my spirit that He will speak stability, unity, wholeness, and intimacy into my life. How long have I tried to manufacture these things in my life? I have only succeeded in producing short-term counterfeits.

My breakthrough will come when He utters the name of each of my needs. When the time is right, His voice will usher in the provision and transformation that has been on his agenda for so long.

He knows your need. He knows that you are powerless to bring it to pass. Draw near to Him and wait for Him to speak…

I realized something interesting today while helping my daughter spell a word. She was trying to write “wisdom”. While going through each letter with her, I noticed that the word “do” is encased in the larger word.

Profound moment!! What is wisdom, without the “do”?

What’s the point of learning, gaining insight, acquiring understanding… if we “do” nothing with it? Wisdom is knowledge in action. It’s insight and awareness playing out in our everyday lives.

I may have an understanding that God is faithful, that His word is true, that He will never leave me or forsake me. However, walking a narrow path with desperate circumstances will allow me to practice what I understand.

Knowing becomes doing as I live out my belief in His faithfulness and love.

Lately, God is trying to teach me that the only thing I need is more of Him. I don’t need a set routine or schedule. I don’t need fancy homeschool curriculum. I don’t need a full checking account. I only need Him. I only need to feel the strength of His arms as He carries me through each moment of the day.

We’re finishing our fourth week of homeschooling… and I have to say that it’s gone completely different from what I expected! My 16 month old has given up his regular sleep routines, so everyday is different.  All of a sudden, he’s waking up at different times and varying the length of his naps. I never know how the day is going to go… I just have to hold on to Jesus. I am learning to be flexible. The structured routine is gone. The traditional way I taught school is not really compatible with an ebb-and-flow routine. My girls are becoming more independent students, and this former control-freak is growing more comfortable with letting them choose their rhythm and pace for the day!  I am becoming a much more creative and flexible teacher.

The Lord is revealing understanding and truth, and I am gaining wisdom as I “do” what He asks each day. Trusting in Him is no longer an idea or a belief.  Trusting in Him isn’t my plan B… after my plans have gone awry.  Trusting is what I “do” because I believe that He’s got me in His hands… it’s becoming a habit.

I’m slow… but I’ll get there!